Paths

We are following a path. Each path is different. Some are running towards a new horizon. Others are at a crossroads, some are winding back to where they originated.

I am a single female looking for a single man. There's just one problem. I am surrounded by gay men. I've fallen for a lot of guys and then they turn out to be gay.  As friends, gay men are fantastic. They are intellectual, articulate, well-dressed, self-sufficient, educated and usually handsome. They are knowledgeable about topics that interest me and are funny, witty, everything I want in a partner except they desire another man.

I'm seeking a husband and am surrounded by quality men who also happen to be seeking husbands. What's wrong with this picture? Do straight men not exist anymore? The straight guys I know that have been vocal about their interest in me are usually deadbeats, still living with their folks, no career prospects, and they play videogames all day.   What is happening to this culture???

I agree that the gay lifestyle is not chosen for most. Who would want to choose a lifestyle of ridicule and pain? But I also can't help but wonder about the straight men who date girls, but never marry and then they suddenly jump out of the closet. They make a choice because they're lonely and as a gay man, companionship is a lot easier to come by then trying to hook up with a temperamental female. That's just my opinion and what I've experienced in trying to find a man for the past 14 years.

I've been praying that God will send a godly man, but I've received gay men only thus far. I must be praying wrong since I wish to have a partner with whom to share my life and a family of my own.